Day 9

This time around is definitely more frustrating. While I am at 175.8 (a weight I haven't seen in a long time) I only lost .2 lbs yesterday. It could have something to do with not eating anything but an apple all day, then we went to Ihop for Rachel's birthday and I got a dinner-it was under 510 calories, but it was full of stuff I shouldn't have, and I didn't get my drops once either.

Oh well....today's another day!

Day 8

I lost .6 lbs yesterday, not very good. I'm totally off my groove with my kids being home for spring break. I didn't eat all afternoon, and when I was cleaning the kitchen I ate the homemade macaroni and cheese Matthew made for dinner. I totally forgot I was on a diet...how lame is that????

It is much harder this time around....I'm not really sure why. It probably has something to do with the kids being home, but they are home for all of next week too...so I'll have to figure something out! I am determined to hit my goal this time. I had plans for the last 2 days to walk around the soccer park while Austin practiced, but they cancelled practice due to the snow yesterday and it was too windy the day before (and smoky from a fire we had).

Today Rachel is 7! I can hardly believe it....she is getting so big and grownup! Austin is supposed to have his first soccer game tonight...but I doubt it with all the snow on the ground. Love Utah springs!!!!

Day 6

Today is March 30 2010 and I weigh 176.6 lbs. That is so exciting! Yesterday I weighed 179.0......I am going to have to get used to writing here again. If for no other reason than it helps me keep a record.

I am so glad to be back doing this diet. My goal is to lose 20 lbs this time. I'm going to start at 177.6 (which is where I was on the first day of this round). I haven't below 170 in many years. This is exciting!

Austin had a practice baseball game last night.......they need to practice.

Day 4

I didn't weigh myself or continue to write in my blog because it was so depressing to gain weight and eat the last few days. I gained 3 lbs....I am now at 180.2

Today I start my "real" diet, of 500 calories a day and I can't weight to see the weight drop away. I am so excited for this process.....none of the foods I ate these last few days were very good..

I went to Arctic Circle Thursday night and got a mushroom burger and oreo shake..neither of which I finished. Thursday afternoon Breanna and I met Kelly for lunch at Zuppa's and that was excellent!

Friday night we went to Golden Corral, and even the rolls I usually eat weren't all that great. Saturday I had a fire pit with my dad and had half a bag of marshmallows......they weren't as good as I remember either. I think my body decided it didn't like the sugar and it all tasted horrible. I even had a coke yesterday (first time since January) and it wasn't as good as I remember. Maybe this will make it easier to not eat in the upcoming weeks, since it didn't taste good!

So, here's to today and starting over......I am going to lose 2 lbs today!!!!

Day 1

I'm starting over on my diet.....my starting weight is 177.6. I will go to April 17 and then start the maintenance period.

We still haven't had my grandmothers funeral....and we won't have it until mid to late April. My grandpa doesn't want to come home from Arizona until April 15th. I think this is retarded, but it's just me I guess.

Work is going well.....I got a raise and a new title: Product Specialist. This is exciting for me....We have parent teacher conference today.....I'm sure they will all go well.

Day 37

I have been able to maintain my weight within 2 lbs this last week-I still weight 177.4 YEAH!!!! Although maintaining this has been harder than I thought. I didn't realize how many sweets and treats I bought for my kids. It's been quite a shocker. Every time I take a bite of anything my children ask me "Is that on your diet?" OK-really it's just Rachel and Breanna, and once in a while Austin. And I guess that's what I wanted, right? I wouldn't have told them I could buy Dance Dance Revolution when I lost 20 lbs if I didn't want them keeping me honest. In 2 days I will have been on the maintenance plan for 2 weeks.

I have lost 17 lbs total so far. I'm trying to be happy with that, right now, but it's really hard. Every day I think "Should I start over tomorrow?" I'm really anxious to get this weight off and KEEP IT OFF!!!!

We still haven't buried my grandma....my grandpa said if he couldn't leave Arizona today or tomorrow he won't come home until next week. He didn't want to pay more than $35 for a hotel room. I still don't think it's hit me yet. It probably will once grandpa is here and we have the graveside service.

Day 29 & 30

I have maintained the same weight the last 2 days, 177.4. I believe that's a good thing, since this is the maintainence period!

My grandmother is very sick and will probably be gone at some point today. The doctors weren't sure she was going to make it to yesterday morning, so the fact she is still alive is somewhat of a miracle. If she was responsive and improving it might be a miracle, I guess. Since she's not responsive, I am praying she will go soon. She is 72.

All of my siblings are waiting to hear something as well. Amanda and I have had a nice chat the last few days and maybe our relationship is on its way to being healed. Time will tell I guess.

McCade and Britney said they would come down as well. However, mom said it's possible that they will cremate Grandma in Arizona and then Grandpa will come home when he's ready. That would really suck....even though there's not a funeral, I would still feel like I didn't get to say goodbye.

To top that off, Kelly's grandma Frankie wasn't doing very well either. She fell and broke her hip a couple of weeks ago...they weren't sure if she was going to survive either. Connie and Robert went to Portland to visit with her. She was awake and a (bit) out of it when they were there, but it helped them feel better to see her. She will be 92 in April.